Amidst all the wonderful things that have happened in our lives (i.e. Miss Lucille, job successes, fall adventures, ward callings, good friends and family nearby), I have to confess, my heart has been a little heavy. Marriage requires two people. That means two personalities. Two timelines. AND two lives coming together as one. For the most part, this is exciting and full of opportunity and promise. That leaves a small (or sometimes large) part vulnerable to frustration and head-banging conversations in seek of compromise and direction. Days are full of growth and learning — both regarding my own identity and the identity of us as a couple. Which brings me to the purpose of this post: temples.
I had the blessed opportunity to go through the temple for the first time several months ago, and my life forever changed…more than I could’ve ever anticipated. My arbitrary worries seemed to fade. My faith and trust in God felt practically tangible. And, my doubts and insecurities in my relationship became more of a catalyst and less of a road block. It was amazing and miraculous. That afternoon following my temple trip was full of emotions that I will always hold near to my heart. After such a long battle with fear, doubt, and insecurity in dating, I felt overwhelmingly blessed to experience the smidgen of hope and peace only offered by God.
GAH! I wish there was an >>insert song and dance>> in this blog post, because, if there were, I would include ten of them. In fact, when I started thinking about the temple, I thought of the commonly belted Wicked song, For Good. Although this song is sung between two unlikely friends, Glinda and Elphaba, I can’t help but feel this same way about the temple: changed for good. I cannot express how significantly the unifying and sacred bonds of the temple have strengthened me first as a young woman and now as a wife. It has made all the difference in my decision to marry and my marriage thus far. There is a deeper sanctity to my relationship with Nick, one that I cannot attribute to any other wedding gift or piece of marriage advice. It’s a place of perspective, hope, and recharge. Rather than letting the recent feelings of uncertainty fester and the weight of responsibility become overwhelming, I’ve continued (and hope to continue) to return to the source that is liberating and reassuring in nature. How grateful I am to have such a lovely place to reside in times of happiness and trial.
AND how grateful I am to have a small snippet of the most lovely day of my life to watch and rewatch, time and time again.